The associated reading for this reflection can be found in your Every Sacred Sunday Mass journal or online here.
As tears ran down her face, she cried out in agony, “I want to die.”
Fern, an elderly women in her early 90s, was normally cheerful. Her bright smile and positive attitude were contagious. Although she was bedridden, each home visit was full of laughs, stories, and thankfulness to the Lord. It was always a joy and a gift to be able to bring Fern the Holy Eucharist each Sunday.
This time, our visit was different. It became obvious that Fern's hope and strength were under attack. Unsure of what to do, my friend and I held her hands tightly and prayed—asking the Lord for courage, strength, and hope. As I stared into her eyes, I could see her deep pain and loneliness. After discussion and prayer, Fern’s resolve seemed to be strengthened and reaffirmed in her difficulties.
We weren’t able to see Fern for a few weeks, but this time she had been moved from her home to the hospital. She was completely unresponsive. Despite her condition, it was apparent that she was still fighting.
Sitting on both sides of Fern, we held her hands and began to intercede for her, hoping that if she could hear us she would feel some form of encouragement. Fifteen minutes after we had left the hospital, Fern passed away. She had fought the good fight and was ready to meet our Father.
We often think we need to fight through our struggles alone, but the truth is we need the Holy Spirit to help us through our darkest hour. In this Sunday’s first reading, it wasn’t until Moses stood from the mountaintop holding his arms wide open to the Lord—an apparent proclamation of the Lord’s Kingship and yield to Holy Spirit—that he and his soldiers found victory and strength.
Even Moses, one of the greatest prophets, grew weary. It was only when he allowed his brothers to physically hold him that he could continue praising his Father. Aaron and Hur had to support his very hands because he was too weak to lift them on his own. Let this be a reminder to not only invite the Lord into our battles, but to remain vulnerable and allow our spiritual brothers and sisters to support us in our suffering so that we may see the final victory.
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